Happy Birthday

Well today was my birthday and it was horrible. Sometimes I dont know why I even wake up. I guess it all started with the sun in my eyes first thing in the morning. I like sunshine but not when I wake up and its in my eyes. It makes me angry for some reason. So I wake up angry and I go all day being angry. I alternate between crying and hiding in my bed. Lately everything has been bothering me. Sometimes I think if I didn't have kids I would not be around anymore. I really hate just about everything right now and wish I could just go away. I am tired of not having any money because I cant find a job because I cant afford afterschool care because Nick gets out at 1pm. I would probably make just enough to pay daycare so what's the point. I guess I just figured out my problem. MONEY, and I dont think my meds are working. Oh well I guess i'll get over it eventually. Someone told me to look to the future for happiness, I said what future, the way this government is screwing hard working people that pay their bills there wont be any future. Ok thats all today, I feel a little better.